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DA AI policy: other places to find me
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Welp. Due to Deviantart's gross AI policy, I'm going to stop posting here. I'm not going to bother to remove what I have, but it feels icky continuing to support a company that refuses to support artists, by handing them free content.
Other places to find me:
Twitter (free images posted daily Dec 2021-early 2023 then 2x weekly): https://twitter.com/NyxNaiaStock
Tumblr (free images posted daily until I run out):
https://www.tumblr.com/nyxnaiastock
Ko-Fi (some free images, not posted consistently, this is where all my paid packs live, as well as a few free packs):
https://ko-fi.com/courtneysimonds
I'm also an author. My partner and I just rebranded and re-released our first book.
We're on all the social medias as either MetacosmChronicles or MetacosmSeries but I won't link them all here.
Here's the book link tho:
https://www.amazon.com/Everdark-Metacosm-Chronicles-Book-One-ebook/dp/B0BX7NGHWR
(If you buy a paperback from our website shop, you get a free custom plastic bookmark with original holographic art!)
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Hi guys!! I am super hyped to announce that my partner and I published our second novel, The Boy Who Rang The Bells! Just in time for Christmas ^_^
You can buy it as a beautiful paperback or an ebook on Amazon here: www.amazon.com/Boy-Rang-Bells-…
Genetic experiment and former slave Pheonix is the half-baked reincarnated God of Justice, though he doesn’t feel it. He may be weirdly immortal and freakishly strong, but he’s still just a kid. Freedom from the slavers introduces him to a new threat: apathy. Stagnated, corrupt bureaucracy. ‘The balance,’ a concept held high in the ordered universe, demands harmony with evil. Pheonix may not understand sapient interactions, but even he knows evil should be eradicated, not tolerated. He finds an unexpected ally in Ranger Special Projects Commander Chani, a mysterious and talented woman with far-reaching political connections. He’ll need those connections, because Pheonix and his allies aren’t facing some berobed Lord of Darkness at the top of a tower to save the world — they’re taking on the very force of evil itself.
---The Boy Who Rang The Bells is the first novel in the Fulcrum story arc of the Metaverse Chronicles. Decades in the making between partners Alex and Courtney Simonds, Metaverse is a science fantasy universe of infinite possibilities.
Regarding hiatus:
I've always held in my heart that at some point I'd be able to come back to this, full time. I think I can finally admit to myself that realistically I've been on hiatus for 5+ years. I'm going to declare it officially and release myself from the guilt.
Everything that's up here will stay, but I don't know when I'll log in. Same goes for my patreon. There's exclusive stock up there, but I won't be uploading any more until I have it and I can't change it to "per item" unless I delete the whole thing and remake it, which I may end up doing at some point. If you want to spent $5 or $10 and download the whole thing and then cancel your support, I wouldn't blame you at this point. Or if you want to support me for (almost) nothing, I'd appreciate that.
For those of you who may not know, I'll summarize the last ten years:
Did a lot of cross country moving, we were homeless a lot. I was too sick to work. My partner couldn't keep a job. My teeth started falling out. My partner hit rock bottom, was diagnosed with severe complex-PTSD and bipolar, delusional, hearing voices, suicidal, and lots more, from abuse suffered during childhood and going to Iraq. Attempted suicide in 2013. I took over full time caring for them which I am still doing. We were in and out of some dangerous places, had many things taken from us, accrued much debt. My health was continuing to get worse and I was struggling to keep up with two kids and my partner's constant care. After being given the runaround by doctors for 8 years I was finally diagnosed with the rare genetic disorder Ehlers Danlos Syndrome in 2015. I lost all my teeth that year as well. I was toothless for two years before taking out a $35,000 loan to get implant assisted dentures because I couldn't have regular dentures (we pay $600 a month for that). My oldest kid (who as of June 2018 is 8) was nonverbal for the first 3 1/2 years of his life, had severe developmental delays, has my EDS as well as some kind of behavioral issue. Still working on getting that diagnosed. Either autism spectrum or bipolar. No resources in my area. I also have postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome and gastroparesis and dysmotility in my entire gastric tract as well as some bizarre neurological issue that no one can figure out. I have constant pain and severe fatigue.
My partner is 100% homebound. Severe anxiety and depression means they can't even talk on the phone and even me leaving to go to the store is difficult. Between my partner, my health, my kids, and finances, I simply have no time or ability to do anything but survive.
This is not meant to be a sob story. I'm not looking for pity, just understanding. Photography and art is my life, it's what I do to get through all of these bad things and hard times. And now my body is failing me and I can't. Nothing hurts more than that.
Enjoy what is still up here, and I'm doubly sorry that I have had to take this step back. Thank you for your support up until now. Hopefully I will still be able to upload some things occasionally.
In the meantime, you can find updates and some of my other stuff on social media:
Twitter: @CourtneySimonds (mostly funny parenting stuff and political bitching and random thoughts)
Instagram: @CourtneySimonds (health related, selfies, random, writing stuff)
@ simonds_photography (just my photography)
@ metaverse_prime_speaker (art)
Facebook: www.facebook.com/simondsphotog…
Patreon: patreon.com/csimonds
Youtube: youtube.com/clsimonds
*********************
My partner and I wrote and self published a novel, the first in our Metaverse series:
Chased by nightmares and haunted by a voice urging her to kill, psyker Redd unwittingly opens a portal to Upworld, a realm populated by the last remnant of the angelic race. She is thrust into an intergalactic conflict: the Rangers and their allies must prevent the fortress Everdark, the angels' last bastion, from being overrun by evil.
Sent to the front lines because of her psychic abilities, Redd finds herself at the mercy of a mysterious entity that gifts her with tremendous power and then abandons her, leaving her exhausted and confused. Clinging to her very sanity and caught in the nebulous place between good and evil, she is swept up into not only a battle for the angels' lives, but something far greater.
Everdark is the first step on a road to an awaited destiny that, with Redd and her companions playing integral parts, will change the universe at its very core.
And the Amazon link: www.amazon.com/dp/B00HYHL2WM
MY RULES/TERMS OF USE
- Anything containing my stock that is featured in magazines, art galleries, or on book covers or CD cases, etc, credit me as the model/photographer; Courtney Simonds. (if there is another model and I took his/her picture, please ask for their name for proper credit)
- If you use my stock please send me a link and give credit!
- No erotic or fetish art and anything derogatory or racist. I reserve the right to ask you to take something down if I disapprove, but I will tell you right now that hasn't happened yet.
- Please no comments about my appearance, good or bad.
- I HEREBY GIVE MY PERMISSION TO ALL DEVIANTART USERS TO MAKE PRINT VERSIONS AND SELL ANYTHING YOU CREATED WITH MY STOCK IN IT. Just notify me and give Courtney Simonds credit.
- I apologize that I can't respond to every note, comment and useage of my stock. Rest assured that I DO look at every one and I appreciate every comment and favorite. If you desperately need to get ahold of me, my email is Undelineated@aol.com.
You can buy it as a beautiful paperback or an ebook on Amazon here: www.amazon.com/Boy-Rang-Bells-…
Genetic experiment and former slave Pheonix is the half-baked reincarnated God of Justice, though he doesn’t feel it. He may be weirdly immortal and freakishly strong, but he’s still just a kid. Freedom from the slavers introduces him to a new threat: apathy. Stagnated, corrupt bureaucracy. ‘The balance,’ a concept held high in the ordered universe, demands harmony with evil. Pheonix may not understand sapient interactions, but even he knows evil should be eradicated, not tolerated. He finds an unexpected ally in Ranger Special Projects Commander Chani, a mysterious and talented woman with far-reaching political connections. He’ll need those connections, because Pheonix and his allies aren’t facing some berobed Lord of Darkness at the top of a tower to save the world — they’re taking on the very force of evil itself.
---The Boy Who Rang The Bells is the first novel in the Fulcrum story arc of the Metaverse Chronicles. Decades in the making between partners Alex and Courtney Simonds, Metaverse is a science fantasy universe of infinite possibilities.
Regarding hiatus:
I've always held in my heart that at some point I'd be able to come back to this, full time. I think I can finally admit to myself that realistically I've been on hiatus for 5+ years. I'm going to declare it officially and release myself from the guilt.
Everything that's up here will stay, but I don't know when I'll log in. Same goes for my patreon. There's exclusive stock up there, but I won't be uploading any more until I have it and I can't change it to "per item" unless I delete the whole thing and remake it, which I may end up doing at some point. If you want to spent $5 or $10 and download the whole thing and then cancel your support, I wouldn't blame you at this point. Or if you want to support me for (almost) nothing, I'd appreciate that.
For those of you who may not know, I'll summarize the last ten years:
Did a lot of cross country moving, we were homeless a lot. I was too sick to work. My partner couldn't keep a job. My teeth started falling out. My partner hit rock bottom, was diagnosed with severe complex-PTSD and bipolar, delusional, hearing voices, suicidal, and lots more, from abuse suffered during childhood and going to Iraq. Attempted suicide in 2013. I took over full time caring for them which I am still doing. We were in and out of some dangerous places, had many things taken from us, accrued much debt. My health was continuing to get worse and I was struggling to keep up with two kids and my partner's constant care. After being given the runaround by doctors for 8 years I was finally diagnosed with the rare genetic disorder Ehlers Danlos Syndrome in 2015. I lost all my teeth that year as well. I was toothless for two years before taking out a $35,000 loan to get implant assisted dentures because I couldn't have regular dentures (we pay $600 a month for that). My oldest kid (who as of June 2018 is 8) was nonverbal for the first 3 1/2 years of his life, had severe developmental delays, has my EDS as well as some kind of behavioral issue. Still working on getting that diagnosed. Either autism spectrum or bipolar. No resources in my area. I also have postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome and gastroparesis and dysmotility in my entire gastric tract as well as some bizarre neurological issue that no one can figure out. I have constant pain and severe fatigue.
My partner is 100% homebound. Severe anxiety and depression means they can't even talk on the phone and even me leaving to go to the store is difficult. Between my partner, my health, my kids, and finances, I simply have no time or ability to do anything but survive.
This is not meant to be a sob story. I'm not looking for pity, just understanding. Photography and art is my life, it's what I do to get through all of these bad things and hard times. And now my body is failing me and I can't. Nothing hurts more than that.
Enjoy what is still up here, and I'm doubly sorry that I have had to take this step back. Thank you for your support up until now. Hopefully I will still be able to upload some things occasionally.
In the meantime, you can find updates and some of my other stuff on social media:
Twitter: @CourtneySimonds (mostly funny parenting stuff and political bitching and random thoughts)
Instagram: @CourtneySimonds (health related, selfies, random, writing stuff)
@ simonds_photography (just my photography)
@ metaverse_prime_speaker (art)
Facebook: www.facebook.com/simondsphotog…
Patreon: patreon.com/csimonds
Youtube: youtube.com/clsimonds
*********************
My partner and I wrote and self published a novel, the first in our Metaverse series:
Chased by nightmares and haunted by a voice urging her to kill, psyker Redd unwittingly opens a portal to Upworld, a realm populated by the last remnant of the angelic race. She is thrust into an intergalactic conflict: the Rangers and their allies must prevent the fortress Everdark, the angels' last bastion, from being overrun by evil.
Sent to the front lines because of her psychic abilities, Redd finds herself at the mercy of a mysterious entity that gifts her with tremendous power and then abandons her, leaving her exhausted and confused. Clinging to her very sanity and caught in the nebulous place between good and evil, she is swept up into not only a battle for the angels' lives, but something far greater.
Everdark is the first step on a road to an awaited destiny that, with Redd and her companions playing integral parts, will change the universe at its very core.
And the Amazon link: www.amazon.com/dp/B00HYHL2WM
MY RULES/TERMS OF USE
- Anything containing my stock that is featured in magazines, art galleries, or on book covers or CD cases, etc, credit me as the model/photographer; Courtney Simonds. (if there is another model and I took his/her picture, please ask for their name for proper credit)
- If you use my stock please send me a link and give credit!
- No erotic or fetish art and anything derogatory or racist. I reserve the right to ask you to take something down if I disapprove, but I will tell you right now that hasn't happened yet.
- Please no comments about my appearance, good or bad.
- I HEREBY GIVE MY PERMISSION TO ALL DEVIANTART USERS TO MAKE PRINT VERSIONS AND SELL ANYTHING YOU CREATED WITH MY STOCK IN IT. Just notify me and give Courtney Simonds credit.
- I apologize that I can't respond to every note, comment and useage of my stock. Rest assured that I DO look at every one and I appreciate every comment and favorite. If you desperately need to get ahold of me, my email is Undelineated@aol.com.
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OMG a DD?????
6 min read
I've honestly given up on my photography and modeling because my health is so bad right now so to see a DD -- especially wearing my partner's crown and an outfit we designed and constructed from scratch -- makes me want to cry with happiness. You have no idea what it means.
Thank you so much for still supporting me even after all these years, even though I'm not super active. Thank you especially to ImaginaryRosseArt for featuring me <3
And just as another reminder I'm doing a *lot* of art right now and my partner and I are about to release our second book so keep an eye out for that! My art account is MetacosmChronicles though I'm more active on IG and FB.
Regarding hiatus:
I've always held in my heart that at some point I'd be able to come back to this, full time. I think I can finally admit to myself that realistically I've been on hiatus for 5+ years. I'm going to declare it officially and release myself from the guilt.
Everything that's up here will stay, but I don't know when I'll log in. Same goes for my patreon. There's exclusive stock up there, but I won't be uploading any more until I have it and I can't change it to "per item" unless I delete the whole thing and remake it, which I may end up doing at some point. If you want to spent $5 or $10 and download the whole thing and then cancel your support, I wouldn't blame you at this point. Or if you want to support me for (almost) nothing, I'd appreciate that.
For those of you who may not know, I'll summarize the last ten years:
Did a lot of cross country moving, we were homeless a lot. I was too sick to work. My partner couldn't keep a job. My teeth started falling out. My partner hit rock bottom, was diagnosed with severe complex-PTSD and bipolar, delusional, hearing voices, suicidal, and lots more, from abuse suffered during childhood and going to Iraq. Attempted suicide in 2013. I took over full time caring for them which I am still doing. We were in and out of some dangerous places, had many things taken from us, accrued much debt. My health was continuing to get worse and I was struggling to keep up with two kids and my partner's constant care. After being given the runaround by doctors for 8 years I was finally diagnosed with the rare genetic disorder Ehlers Danlos Syndrome in 2015. I lost all my teeth that year as well. I was toothless for two years before taking out a $35,000 loan to get implant assisted dentures because I couldn't have regular dentures (we pay $600 a month for that). My oldest kid (who as of June 2018 is 8) was nonverbal for the first 3 1/2 years of his life, had severe developmental delays, has my EDS as well as some kind of behavioral issue. Still working on getting that diagnosed. Either autism spectrum or bipolar. No resources in my area. I also have postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome and gastroparesis and dysmotility in my entire gastric tract as well as some bizarre neurological issue that no one can figure out. I have constant pain and severe fatigue.
My partner is 100% homebound. Severe anxiety and depression means they can't even talk on the phone and even me leaving to go to the store is difficult. Between my partner, my health, my kids, and finances, I simply have no time or ability to do anything but survive.
This is not meant to be a sob story. I'm not looking for pity, just understanding. Photography and art is my life, it's what I do to get through all of these bad things and hard times. And now my body is failing me and I can't. Nothing hurts more than that.
Enjoy what is still up here, and I'm doubly sorry that I have had to take this step back. Thank you for your support up until now. Hopefully I will still be able to upload some things occasionally.
In the meantime, you can find updates and some of my other stuff on social media:
Twitter: @CourtneySimonds (mostly funny parenting stuff and political bitching and random thoughts)
Instagram: @CourtneySimonds (health related, selfies, random, writing stuff)
@ simonds_photography (just my photography)
@ metaverse_prime_speaker (art)
Facebook: www.facebook.com/simondsphotog…
Patreon: patreon.com/csimonds
Youtube: youtube.com/clsimonds
*********************
My partner and I wrote and self published a novel, the first in our Metaverse series:
Chased by nightmares and haunted by a voice urging her to kill, psyker Redd unwittingly opens a portal to Upworld, a realm populated by the last remnant of the angelic race. She is thrust into an intergalactic conflict: the Rangers and their allies must prevent the fortress Everdark, the angels' last bastion, from being overrun by evil.
Sent to the front lines because of her psychic abilities, Redd finds herself at the mercy of a mysterious entity that gifts her with tremendous power and then abandons her, leaving her exhausted and confused. Clinging to her very sanity and caught in the nebulous place between good and evil, she is swept up into not only a battle for the angels' lives, but something far greater.
Everdark is the first step on a road to an awaited destiny that, with Redd and her companions playing integral parts, will change the universe at its very core.
And the Amazon link: www.amazon.com/dp/B00HYHL2WM
MY RULES/TERMS OF USE
- Anything containing my stock that is featured in magazines, art galleries, or on book covers or CD cases, etc, credit me as the model/photographer; Courtney Simonds. (if there is another model and I took his/her picture, please ask for their name for proper credit)
- If you use my stock please send me a link and give credit!
- No erotic or fetish art and anything derogatory or racist. I reserve the right to ask you to take something down if I disapprove, but I will tell you right now that hasn't happened yet.
- Please no comments about my appearance, good or bad.
- I HEREBY GIVE MY PERMISSION TO ALL DEVIANTART USERS TO MAKE PRINT VERSIONS AND SELL ANYTHING YOU CREATED WITH MY STOCK IN IT. Just notify me and give Courtney Simonds credit.
- I apologize that I can't respond to every note, comment and useage of my stock. Rest assured that I DO look at every one and I appreciate every comment and favorite. If you desperately need to get ahold of me, my email is Undelineated@aol.com.
Regarding hiatus:
I've always held in my heart that at some point I'd be able to come back to this, full time. I think I can finally admit to myself that realistically I've been on hiatus for 5+ years. I'm going to declare it officially and release myself from the guilt.
Everything that's up here will stay, but I don't know when I'll log in. Same goes for my patreon. There's exclusive stock up there, but I won't be uploading any more until I have it and I can't change it to "per item" unless I delete the whole thing and remake it, which I may end up doing at some point. If you want to spent $5 or $10 and download the whole thing and then cancel your support, I wouldn't blame you at this point. Or if you want to support me for (almost) nothing, I'd appreciate that.
For those of you who may not know, I'll summarize the last ten years:
Did a lot of cross country moving, we were homeless a lot. I was too sick to work. My partner couldn't keep a job. My teeth started falling out. My partner hit rock bottom, was diagnosed with severe complex-PTSD and bipolar, delusional, hearing voices, suicidal, and lots more, from abuse suffered during childhood and going to Iraq. Attempted suicide in 2013. I took over full time caring for them which I am still doing. We were in and out of some dangerous places, had many things taken from us, accrued much debt. My health was continuing to get worse and I was struggling to keep up with two kids and my partner's constant care. After being given the runaround by doctors for 8 years I was finally diagnosed with the rare genetic disorder Ehlers Danlos Syndrome in 2015. I lost all my teeth that year as well. I was toothless for two years before taking out a $35,000 loan to get implant assisted dentures because I couldn't have regular dentures (we pay $600 a month for that). My oldest kid (who as of June 2018 is 8) was nonverbal for the first 3 1/2 years of his life, had severe developmental delays, has my EDS as well as some kind of behavioral issue. Still working on getting that diagnosed. Either autism spectrum or bipolar. No resources in my area. I also have postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome and gastroparesis and dysmotility in my entire gastric tract as well as some bizarre neurological issue that no one can figure out. I have constant pain and severe fatigue.
My partner is 100% homebound. Severe anxiety and depression means they can't even talk on the phone and even me leaving to go to the store is difficult. Between my partner, my health, my kids, and finances, I simply have no time or ability to do anything but survive.
This is not meant to be a sob story. I'm not looking for pity, just understanding. Photography and art is my life, it's what I do to get through all of these bad things and hard times. And now my body is failing me and I can't. Nothing hurts more than that.
Enjoy what is still up here, and I'm doubly sorry that I have had to take this step back. Thank you for your support up until now. Hopefully I will still be able to upload some things occasionally.
In the meantime, you can find updates and some of my other stuff on social media:
Twitter: @CourtneySimonds (mostly funny parenting stuff and political bitching and random thoughts)
Instagram: @CourtneySimonds (health related, selfies, random, writing stuff)
@ simonds_photography (just my photography)
@ metaverse_prime_speaker (art)
Facebook: www.facebook.com/simondsphotog…
Patreon: patreon.com/csimonds
Youtube: youtube.com/clsimonds
*********************
My partner and I wrote and self published a novel, the first in our Metaverse series:
Chased by nightmares and haunted by a voice urging her to kill, psyker Redd unwittingly opens a portal to Upworld, a realm populated by the last remnant of the angelic race. She is thrust into an intergalactic conflict: the Rangers and their allies must prevent the fortress Everdark, the angels' last bastion, from being overrun by evil.
Sent to the front lines because of her psychic abilities, Redd finds herself at the mercy of a mysterious entity that gifts her with tremendous power and then abandons her, leaving her exhausted and confused. Clinging to her very sanity and caught in the nebulous place between good and evil, she is swept up into not only a battle for the angels' lives, but something far greater.
Everdark is the first step on a road to an awaited destiny that, with Redd and her companions playing integral parts, will change the universe at its very core.
And the Amazon link: www.amazon.com/dp/B00HYHL2WM
MY RULES/TERMS OF USE
- Anything containing my stock that is featured in magazines, art galleries, or on book covers or CD cases, etc, credit me as the model/photographer; Courtney Simonds. (if there is another model and I took his/her picture, please ask for their name for proper credit)
- If you use my stock please send me a link and give credit!
- No erotic or fetish art and anything derogatory or racist. I reserve the right to ask you to take something down if I disapprove, but I will tell you right now that hasn't happened yet.
- Please no comments about my appearance, good or bad.
- I HEREBY GIVE MY PERMISSION TO ALL DEVIANTART USERS TO MAKE PRINT VERSIONS AND SELL ANYTHING YOU CREATED WITH MY STOCK IN IT. Just notify me and give Courtney Simonds credit.
- I apologize that I can't respond to every note, comment and useage of my stock. Rest assured that I DO look at every one and I appreciate every comment and favorite. If you desperately need to get ahold of me, my email is Undelineated@aol.com.
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Updates(2) and official hiatus
6 min read
Hi guys ^_^ I still haven't been doing many photoshoots because of my health but I have gotten back into drawing! (at least I can sit and do that)
If you want to take a peek at my art, I primarily post on Instagram at metaverse_prime_speaker! (link: instagram.com/metaverse_prime_… )
Also my partner and I are finishing up editing our second Metaverse Chronicles book and hope to have it published by the end of this year! We also are writing a Metaverse serial for a local magazine, Tumbleweird, you can find them on tumbleweird.org or at their patreon: www.patreon.com/tumbleweird . I will also start posting that on my patreon patreon.com/csimonds
Regarding hiatus:
I've always held in my heart that at some point I'd be able to come back to this, full time. I think I can finally admit to myself that realistically I've been on hiatus for 5+ years. I'm going to declare it officially and release myself from the guilt.
Everything that's up here will stay, but I don't know when I'll log in. Same goes for my patreon. There's exclusive stock up there, but I won't be uploading any more until I have it and I can't change it to "per item" unless I delete the whole thing and remake it, which I may end up doing at some point. If you want to spent $5 or $10 and download the whole thing and then cancel your support, I wouldn't blame you at this point. Or if you want to support me for (almost) nothing, I'd appreciate that.
For those of you who may not know, I'll summarize the last ten years:
Did a lot of cross country moving, we were homeless a lot. I was too sick to work. My partner couldn't keep a job. My teeth started falling out. My partner hit rock bottom, was diagnosed with severe complex-PTSD and bipolar, delusional, hearing voices, suicidal, and lots more, from abuse suffered during childhood and going to Iraq. Attempted suicide in 2013. I took over full time caring for them which I am still doing. We were in and out of some dangerous places, had many things taken from us, accrued much debt. My health was continuing to get worse and I was struggling to keep up with two kids and my partner's constant care. After being given the runaround by doctors for 8 years I was finally diagnosed with the rare genetic disorder Ehlers Danlos Syndrome in 2015. I lost all my teeth that year as well. I was toothless for two years before taking out a $35,000 loan to get implant assisted dentures because I couldn't have regular dentures (we pay $600 a month for that). My oldest kid (who as of June 2018 is 8) was nonverbal for the first 3 1/2 years of his life, had severe developmental delays, has my EDS as well as some kind of behavioral issue. Still working on getting that diagnosed. Either autism spectrum or bipolar. No resources in my area. I also have postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome and gastroparesis and dysmotility in my entire gastric tract as well as some bizarre neurological issue that no one can figure out. I have constant pain and severe fatigue.
My partner is 100% homebound. Severe anxiety and depression means they can't even talk on the phone and even me leaving to go to the store is difficult. Between my partner, my health, my kids, and finances, I simply have no time or ability to do anything but survive.
This is not meant to be a sob story. I'm not looking for pity, just understanding. Photography and art is my life, it's what I do to get through all of these bad things and hard times. And now my body is failing me and I can't. Nothing hurts more than that.
Enjoy what is still up here, and I'm doubly sorry that I have had to take this step back. Thank you for your support up until now. Hopefully I will still be able to upload some things occasionally.
In the meantime, you can find updates and some of my other stuff on social media:
Twitter: @CourtneySimonds (mostly funny parenting stuff and political bitching and random thoughts)
Instagram: @CourtneySimonds (health related, selfies, random, writing stuff)
@ simonds_photography (just my photography)
@ metaverse_prime_speaker (art)
Facebook: www.facebook.com/simondsphotog…
Patreon: patreon.com/csimonds
Youtube: youtube.com/clsimonds
*********************
My partner and I wrote and self published a novel, the first in our Metaverse series:
Chased by nightmares and haunted by a voice urging her to kill, psyker Redd unwittingly opens a portal to Upworld, a realm populated by the last remnant of the angelic race. She is thrust into an intergalactic conflict: the Rangers and their allies must prevent the fortress Everdark, the angels' last bastion, from being overrun by evil.
Sent to the front lines because of her psychic abilities, Redd finds herself at the mercy of a mysterious entity that gifts her with tremendous power and then abandons her, leaving her exhausted and confused. Clinging to her very sanity and caught in the nebulous place between good and evil, she is swept up into not only a battle for the angels' lives, but something far greater.
Everdark is the first step on a road to an awaited destiny that, with Redd and her companions playing integral parts, will change the universe at its very core.
And the Amazon link: www.amazon.com/dp/B00HYHL2WM
MY RULES/TERMS OF USE
- Anything containing my stock that is featured in magazines, art galleries, or on book covers or CD cases, etc, credit me as the model/photographer; Courtney Simonds. (if there is another model and I took his/her picture, please ask for their name for proper credit)
- If you use my stock please send me a link and give credit!
- No erotic or fetish art and anything derogatory or racist. I reserve the right to ask you to take something down if I disapprove, but I will tell you right now that hasn't happened yet.
- Please no comments about my appearance, good or bad.
- I HEREBY GIVE MY PERMISSION TO ALL DEVIANTART USERS TO MAKE PRINT VERSIONS AND SELL ANYTHING YOU CREATED WITH MY STOCK IN IT. Just notify me and give Courtney Simonds credit.
- I apologize that I can't respond to every note, comment and useage of my stock. Rest assured that I DO look at every one and I appreciate every comment and favorite. If you desperately need to get ahold of me, my email is Undelineated@aol.com.
If you want to take a peek at my art, I primarily post on Instagram at metaverse_prime_speaker! (link: instagram.com/metaverse_prime_… )
Also my partner and I are finishing up editing our second Metaverse Chronicles book and hope to have it published by the end of this year! We also are writing a Metaverse serial for a local magazine, Tumbleweird, you can find them on tumbleweird.org or at their patreon: www.patreon.com/tumbleweird . I will also start posting that on my patreon patreon.com/csimonds
Regarding hiatus:
I've always held in my heart that at some point I'd be able to come back to this, full time. I think I can finally admit to myself that realistically I've been on hiatus for 5+ years. I'm going to declare it officially and release myself from the guilt.
Everything that's up here will stay, but I don't know when I'll log in. Same goes for my patreon. There's exclusive stock up there, but I won't be uploading any more until I have it and I can't change it to "per item" unless I delete the whole thing and remake it, which I may end up doing at some point. If you want to spent $5 or $10 and download the whole thing and then cancel your support, I wouldn't blame you at this point. Or if you want to support me for (almost) nothing, I'd appreciate that.
For those of you who may not know, I'll summarize the last ten years:
Did a lot of cross country moving, we were homeless a lot. I was too sick to work. My partner couldn't keep a job. My teeth started falling out. My partner hit rock bottom, was diagnosed with severe complex-PTSD and bipolar, delusional, hearing voices, suicidal, and lots more, from abuse suffered during childhood and going to Iraq. Attempted suicide in 2013. I took over full time caring for them which I am still doing. We were in and out of some dangerous places, had many things taken from us, accrued much debt. My health was continuing to get worse and I was struggling to keep up with two kids and my partner's constant care. After being given the runaround by doctors for 8 years I was finally diagnosed with the rare genetic disorder Ehlers Danlos Syndrome in 2015. I lost all my teeth that year as well. I was toothless for two years before taking out a $35,000 loan to get implant assisted dentures because I couldn't have regular dentures (we pay $600 a month for that). My oldest kid (who as of June 2018 is 8) was nonverbal for the first 3 1/2 years of his life, had severe developmental delays, has my EDS as well as some kind of behavioral issue. Still working on getting that diagnosed. Either autism spectrum or bipolar. No resources in my area. I also have postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome and gastroparesis and dysmotility in my entire gastric tract as well as some bizarre neurological issue that no one can figure out. I have constant pain and severe fatigue.
My partner is 100% homebound. Severe anxiety and depression means they can't even talk on the phone and even me leaving to go to the store is difficult. Between my partner, my health, my kids, and finances, I simply have no time or ability to do anything but survive.
This is not meant to be a sob story. I'm not looking for pity, just understanding. Photography and art is my life, it's what I do to get through all of these bad things and hard times. And now my body is failing me and I can't. Nothing hurts more than that.
Enjoy what is still up here, and I'm doubly sorry that I have had to take this step back. Thank you for your support up until now. Hopefully I will still be able to upload some things occasionally.
In the meantime, you can find updates and some of my other stuff on social media:
Twitter: @CourtneySimonds (mostly funny parenting stuff and political bitching and random thoughts)
Instagram: @CourtneySimonds (health related, selfies, random, writing stuff)
@ simonds_photography (just my photography)
@ metaverse_prime_speaker (art)
Facebook: www.facebook.com/simondsphotog…
Patreon: patreon.com/csimonds
Youtube: youtube.com/clsimonds
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My partner and I wrote and self published a novel, the first in our Metaverse series:
Chased by nightmares and haunted by a voice urging her to kill, psyker Redd unwittingly opens a portal to Upworld, a realm populated by the last remnant of the angelic race. She is thrust into an intergalactic conflict: the Rangers and their allies must prevent the fortress Everdark, the angels' last bastion, from being overrun by evil.
Sent to the front lines because of her psychic abilities, Redd finds herself at the mercy of a mysterious entity that gifts her with tremendous power and then abandons her, leaving her exhausted and confused. Clinging to her very sanity and caught in the nebulous place between good and evil, she is swept up into not only a battle for the angels' lives, but something far greater.
Everdark is the first step on a road to an awaited destiny that, with Redd and her companions playing integral parts, will change the universe at its very core.
And the Amazon link: www.amazon.com/dp/B00HYHL2WM
MY RULES/TERMS OF USE
- Anything containing my stock that is featured in magazines, art galleries, or on book covers or CD cases, etc, credit me as the model/photographer; Courtney Simonds. (if there is another model and I took his/her picture, please ask for their name for proper credit)
- If you use my stock please send me a link and give credit!
- No erotic or fetish art and anything derogatory or racist. I reserve the right to ask you to take something down if I disapprove, but I will tell you right now that hasn't happened yet.
- Please no comments about my appearance, good or bad.
- I HEREBY GIVE MY PERMISSION TO ALL DEVIANTART USERS TO MAKE PRINT VERSIONS AND SELL ANYTHING YOU CREATED WITH MY STOCK IN IT. Just notify me and give Courtney Simonds credit.
- I apologize that I can't respond to every note, comment and useage of my stock. Rest assured that I DO look at every one and I appreciate every comment and favorite. If you desperately need to get ahold of me, my email is Undelineated@aol.com.
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Official hiatus + Opus final update
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This was the update I didn't want to write. November 20th, 2018, at 10:30am we said goodbye to Opus.
Last night he had over 20 seizures. He didn't sleep, and neither did I. I spent all night laying on the ground with him, holding him during the seizures, so he didn't feel alone. When he wasn't seizing, he would swing his head around or stare off at nothing, confused, or meow and wander around in circles. There was no recognition. By this morning, he was laying completely limp and barely breathing. We all agreed that it was time for him to go. And I think he knew, too.
I wrapped him up in one of his favorite blankets, and drove with him swaddled. I held him in the waiting room and laid him down on the table. He didn't move, other than to open his eyes twice to outside sounds.
We said our goodbyes. He didn't even move. He just stopped.
A month long battle with severe, treatment resistant diabetes destroyed his little body. We tried our best, and he tried his best, but the disease won out.
We still owe something like $3.5k for all of his treatments but I don't feel right continuing to take donations so I'll be closing the GoFundMe soon. Message me if you'd like a refund.
Last night he had over 20 seizures. He didn't sleep, and neither did I. I spent all night laying on the ground with him, holding him during the seizures, so he didn't feel alone. When he wasn't seizing, he would swing his head around or stare off at nothing, confused, or meow and wander around in circles. There was no recognition. By this morning, he was laying completely limp and barely breathing. We all agreed that it was time for him to go. And I think he knew, too.
I wrapped him up in one of his favorite blankets, and drove with him swaddled. I held him in the waiting room and laid him down on the table. He didn't move, other than to open his eyes twice to outside sounds.
We said our goodbyes. He didn't even move. He just stopped.
A month long battle with severe, treatment resistant diabetes destroyed his little body. We tried our best, and he tried his best, but the disease won out.
We still owe something like $3.5k for all of his treatments but I don't feel right continuing to take donations so I'll be closing the GoFundMe soon. Message me if you'd like a refund.
Regarding hiatus:
Everything that's up here will stay, but I don't know when I'll log in. Same goes for my patreon. There's exclusive stock up there, but I won't be uploading any more until I have it and I can't change it to "per item" unless I delete the whole thing and remake it, which I may end up doing at some point. If you want to spent $5 or $10 and download the whole thing and then cancel your support, I wouldn't blame you at this point. Or if you want to support me for (almost) nothing, I'd appreciate that.
For those of you who may not know, I'll summarize the last ten years:
Did a lot of cross country moving, we were homeless a lot. I was too sick to work. My partner couldn't keep a job. My teeth started falling out. My partner hit rock bottom, was diagnosed with severe complex-PTSD and bipolar, delusional, hearing voices, suicidal, and lots more, from abuse suffered during childhood and going to Iraq. Attempted suicide in 2013. I took over full time caring for them which I am still doing. We were in and out of some dangerous places, had many things taken from us, accrued much debt. My health was continuing to get worse and I was struggling to keep up with two kids and my partner's constant care. After being given the runaround by doctors for 8 years I was finally diagnosed with the rare genetic disorder Ehlers Danlos Syndrome in 2015. I lost all my teeth that year as well. I was toothless for two years before taking out a $35,000 loan to get implant assisted dentures because I couldn't have regular dentures (we pay $600 a month for that). My oldest kid (who as of June 2018 is 8) was nonverbal for the first 3 1/2 years of his life, had severe developmental delays, has my EDS as well as some kind of behavioral issue. Still working on getting that diagnosed. Either autism spectrum or bipolar. No resources in my area. I also have postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome and gastroparesis and dysmotility in my entire gastric tract as well as some bizarre neurological issue that no one can figure out. I have constant pain and severe fatigue.
Did a lot of cross country moving, we were homeless a lot. I was too sick to work. My partner couldn't keep a job. My teeth started falling out. My partner hit rock bottom, was diagnosed with severe complex-PTSD and bipolar, delusional, hearing voices, suicidal, and lots more, from abuse suffered during childhood and going to Iraq. Attempted suicide in 2013. I took over full time caring for them which I am still doing. We were in and out of some dangerous places, had many things taken from us, accrued much debt. My health was continuing to get worse and I was struggling to keep up with two kids and my partner's constant care. After being given the runaround by doctors for 8 years I was finally diagnosed with the rare genetic disorder Ehlers Danlos Syndrome in 2015. I lost all my teeth that year as well. I was toothless for two years before taking out a $35,000 loan to get implant assisted dentures because I couldn't have regular dentures (we pay $600 a month for that). My oldest kid (who as of June 2018 is 8) was nonverbal for the first 3 1/2 years of his life, had severe developmental delays, has my EDS as well as some kind of behavioral issue. Still working on getting that diagnosed. Either autism spectrum or bipolar. No resources in my area. I also have postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome and gastroparesis and dysmotility in my entire gastric tract as well as some bizarre neurological issue that no one can figure out. I have constant pain and severe fatigue.
My partner is 100% homebound. Severe anxiety and depression means they can't even talk on the phone and even me leaving to go to the store is difficult. Between my partner, my health, my kids, and finances, I simply have no time or ability to do anything but survive.
This is not meant to be a sob story. I'm not looking for pity, just understanding. Photography and art is my life, it's what I do to get through all of these bad things and hard times. And now my body is failing me and I can't. Nothing hurts more than that.
Enjoy what is still up here, and I'm doubly sorry that I have had to take this step back. Thank you for your support up until now. Hopefully I will still be able to upload some things occasionally.
In the meantime, you can find updates and some of my other stuff on social media:
Twitter: @CourtneySimonds (mostly funny parenting stuff and political bitching)
Instagram: @CourtneySimonds (art, health related)
@ simonds_photography (just my photography)
Facebook: www.facebook.com/simondsphotog…
Patreon: patreon.com/csimonds
*********************
My partner and I wrote and self published a novel, the first in our Metaverse series:
Chased by nightmares and haunted by a voice urging her to kill, psyker Redd unwittingly opens a portal to Upworld, a realm populated by the last remnant of the angelic race. She is thrust into an intergalactic conflict: the Rangers and their allies must prevent the fortress Everdark, the angels' last bastion, from being overrun by evil.
Sent to the front lines because of her psychic abilities, Redd finds herself at the mercy of a mysterious entity that gifts her with tremendous power and then abandons her, leaving her exhausted and confused. Clinging to her very sanity and caught in the nebulous place between good and evil, she is swept up into not only a battle for the angels' lives, but something far greater.
Everdark is the first step on a road to an awaited destiny that, with Redd and her companions playing integral parts, will change the universe at its very core.
And the Amazon link: www.amazon.com/dp/B00HYHL2WM
MY RULES/TERMS OF USE
- Anything containing my stock that is featured in magazines, art galleries, or on book covers or CD cases, etc, credit me as the model/photographer; Courtney Simonds. (if there is another model and I took his/her picture, please ask for their name for proper credit)
- If you use my stock please send me a link and give credit!
- No erotic or fetish art and anything derogatory or racist. I reserve the right to ask you to take something down if I disapprove, but I will tell you right now that hasn't happened yet.
- Please no comments about my appearance, good or bad.
- I HEREBY GIVE MY PERMISSION TO ALL DEVIANTART USERS TO MAKE PRINT VERSIONS AND SELL ANYTHING YOU CREATED WITH MY STOCK IN IT. Just notify me and give Courtney Simonds credit.
- I apologize that I can't respond to every note, comment and useage of my stock. Rest assured that I DO look at every one and I appreciate every comment and favorite. If you desperately need to get ahold of me, my email is Undelineated@aol.com.
In the meantime, you can find updates and some of my other stuff on social media:
Twitter: @CourtneySimonds (mostly funny parenting stuff and political bitching)
Instagram: @CourtneySimonds (art, health related)
@ simonds_photography (just my photography)
Facebook: www.facebook.com/simondsphotog…
Patreon: patreon.com/csimonds
*********************
My partner and I wrote and self published a novel, the first in our Metaverse series:
Chased by nightmares and haunted by a voice urging her to kill, psyker Redd unwittingly opens a portal to Upworld, a realm populated by the last remnant of the angelic race. She is thrust into an intergalactic conflict: the Rangers and their allies must prevent the fortress Everdark, the angels' last bastion, from being overrun by evil.
Sent to the front lines because of her psychic abilities, Redd finds herself at the mercy of a mysterious entity that gifts her with tremendous power and then abandons her, leaving her exhausted and confused. Clinging to her very sanity and caught in the nebulous place between good and evil, she is swept up into not only a battle for the angels' lives, but something far greater.
Everdark is the first step on a road to an awaited destiny that, with Redd and her companions playing integral parts, will change the universe at its very core.
And the Amazon link: www.amazon.com/dp/B00HYHL2WM
MY RULES/TERMS OF USE
- Anything containing my stock that is featured in magazines, art galleries, or on book covers or CD cases, etc, credit me as the model/photographer; Courtney Simonds. (if there is another model and I took his/her picture, please ask for their name for proper credit)
- If you use my stock please send me a link and give credit!
- No erotic or fetish art and anything derogatory or racist. I reserve the right to ask you to take something down if I disapprove, but I will tell you right now that hasn't happened yet.
- Please no comments about my appearance, good or bad.
- I HEREBY GIVE MY PERMISSION TO ALL DEVIANTART USERS TO MAKE PRINT VERSIONS AND SELL ANYTHING YOU CREATED WITH MY STOCK IN IT. Just notify me and give Courtney Simonds credit.
- I apologize that I can't respond to every note, comment and useage of my stock. Rest assured that I DO look at every one and I appreciate every comment and favorite. If you desperately need to get ahold of me, my email is Undelineated@aol.com.
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